Oh sweet September

OH SWEET SEPTEMBER

How can it already be September, The sweet month of Autumn.

The Rains are on, the winds are here. 

The sadness and blues have already started. 

Today was the start of something new, something unknown. 

Something I have not done before, and I have no choice but to throw myself into it. 

I am learning to let go.

Letting go of all the best laid plans.

All this is left is to start over again.

Starting fresh

Nothing seems to matter equally much anymore. 

I guess it's The Blues talking. 

I'm grumpy, I'm told

I am not grumpy. 

I am sad.

Upset

Worried

But maybe, just maybe there's light at the end of the tunnel. 

My journey is not over, it's just started. 

It turned dark just yesterday.

Now to find that rope, and pull myself up the mountain. 

Go me.

New Beginnings

It is time. 

I depend on it. 

I will change my Way Of Eating.

I will keep myself accountable for what I put in my body.

I am changing things today. 

My starting point is roughly 98 kilos. 

I will take my measurements later on today, and update this when I have the chance. 

I am taking control over what I do. This is it. 

My plan is to motivate myself , and also document what happens on my journey.

 

God bless you all, Shalom

RIP

My old friend, not  a very close friend but he was a friend. 

We spoke a lot and hung out as teenagers. 

I haven't seen him for years, but he is the father of my Goddaughter. 

I have often thought of him throughout the years, just like I do with a lot of people. 

Yes, I do think of the friends I had when I was young.

A few days back, I received a phone call, from the mother of my Goddaughter. 

He is dead. He died.

Completely out of the blue. No health issues, no depression, no nothing. He just fell asleep.

I suppose it can happen, it's how I wish to go, but not when I'm 44. I want to be about 95. 

We cannot choose when and how we leave this world, but I will try to make each day valuable.

I will strive for good health, joy and happiness. 

You will be dearly missed Øyvind, 

mostly by your  wife and your four children. 

But I will also miss you. 

God Bless you all. 

1st Book

I'm glad my mom died

This is the title on Jennette McCurdy's book. The book is about her life and her career and her relationship with her abusive mother. 

I enjoyed the book, as to learn more about Jennette but it was heartbreaking to read what she went through from a little girl all the way until her recovery from an eating disorder and alcohol abuse. 

I liked Jennette, I just did, I had a good feeling about her as a person. Also: she shares her name with my best friend though my teenage years, who also suffered from (by her father as a teenager and also in her late teenage, early twenties by her landlord. 

And Jennette and I are birthday twins, which is always nice. This book had made me understand what went on with jennette during her years on ICarly and Sam and Cat. 

I recommend reading this book , and to support Jennette in her future away from acting. 

Love, Linn

A catch up

Hi. Hello.  Long time, no see. 

Yes, it has most certainly been a long while ago since I have regularly updated anything. 

It is a brand new year, with hopefully new successes. 

I finished 2022 with a win in NaNoWriMo for the first time ever. It was hard going and I haven't written a single word since Nov. 30. 

Nevermind. I'll get back to it soon. As it it a new year, I decided to start knitting a temperature blanket. Just a plain blanket with the colour matching today's temperature.  Here's a picture of my little meager start of a year long project. By now, it has been 14 days (started on Friday 13th of Jan) and I will try to update every once in a while.

What else, I guess I am thinking... a lot, about this and that and everything. My mind is overrun by thoughts. We're watching The Walking Dead, from start to finish, it's fun and it's scary. I am not worried about zombies exactly, but I do think of how the world that we know could end. Especially with things going on in the world, from war to greedy people that want to exploit others to be richer than rich. 

I'd rather live in peace with nature, use only natural clothing and eat only foods from natural sources. It's just not that easy, it seems that meat is more and more difficult to get a hold of. And I eat meat. Maybe I just need to get my own cow, bull and calf and grow a heard from scratch. Just a shame that my small garden behind the house is barely enough to keep chickens. Which I don't. I would very much like to though. One day maybe... 

But for now, I'll just try to avoid certain things. I avoid fast fashion, and the goal is to wear something me- made every day. It's easy enough in the winter with all my knitted sweaters and scarves, but for the summer...it's a little more tricky. I'm trying to finish a dress, and I sew only by hand, so it definitely takes time. But I really enjoy it. 

Will share a picture sometime soon.

 I wonder...

Maybe I'll share some of my houseplants too, I like plants and have done so since I was about 14 years old. That's like.....30 years ago!! wow. Nevermind, age is but a number. 

And honestly, I think I have a different view than some. Maybe most? 

I hope I'll be back soon, with another update. Perhaps more often than before. Maybe 2023 is the year I return fully to my blogging life. 

We shall see. 

Until next time. Much love to you all, Linn